Jiminy christmas. i haven't slept in about 30 hours and while i'm tired there's no way i could sleep right now. I'm actually so far gone as to resurrect this blog, long since aborted. I'm going to give another shot at regular blogging, something i haven't done in a few years--you tend to get skittish when your ex busts you on it.

so yeah, if it wasn't obvious from that last entry before this attempt died, last year sucked ass. (that entry was before it even got to the REALLY crappy parts.) I'm bound and determined that this year isn't going to go down the same road. Its been a rocky start so far but I think I'm getting the hang of it. Part of that is going to be writing a lot more--i always had a clearer head when i blogged before. you know the drill, self-analysis and what-not. chicks dig a guy who's literate too. that doesn't hurt.

so now i'm waiting on a doctor to call me back and tell me whether to come in or go to the ER... I had surgery last week and it looks like the stitches are coming out prematurely, and the incision reopening. It would be nice if he would hurry up and call--i'd like to know whether I can lay down and try to slow the brain down long enough to sleep a few hours. doubtful, but worth a shot all the same. someone more motivated would be writing one of the dozen or so functions I need to write for my CMS today, but i'm an invalid this week--i'm entitled. that's what i keep telling myself, anyway. I gotta get sleep sometime today--I'm hopefully meeting up tonight with my friend Tonyia who i haven't seen in several months. She joined my friendster group earlier today, which was way cool because I didn't know if she was even still in Austin. i knew joining friendster would pay off one day. So far i've logged on all of three times; today (last night?) I invited a bunch of people, a couple of whom joined up. then i started the oh-so-addictive surfing of the profiles--found a couple of geniunely cool looking folks, though like most of those sites it tends to be testosterone-heavy. maybe if i stay in austin i'll be a friendster nut. or maybe i will anyway, if i go to madison.

great. now of course when i really need to be functional i get tired. what the hell. you only live once. good morning and good night.